How things started.

 2024. 11. 25.

Okay. I am not a professional writer. I know it would be nice to make a neat timeline of things in my blog but bear with me. So where to start? I am thinking about if it is too narcissistic to tell you who I am because that requires a lot of explanation. Who I am is of no great importance…God and seven other Chaos Gods raise their hands in objection. They make me smile. Okay, so I am a Hungarian in this body in this life and in our language, God is called ISTEN. Some say Isten is a woman. Well, let's start with the definition of a god. There are a lot of them. Really, there are many divine beings, multidimensional powerful perpetual creators and you are one of them. Okay, this is a flimsy New Age cliche but I am not joking you are also a god. Not of less important than our big G ISTEN. But we both know that most of us can’t divide the Red Sea. Can’t turn water into wine and sadly fish don't just swim into our nets either. If you can do that I would like to meet you in person lol. So we in this Earth are mostly just mere mortals and we can’t even lift up a little stone with telekinetic powers. I find this annoyingly limiting and ridiculously unbelievable. So God the big G can do anything…Eeeh. That is not true. Really, he can’t do anything anytime he wishes. Some may want to throw some stones at me right now but this is the truth. God can create anything…that is true but even he needs to obey the rules of creation or else the fabric of the „reality” (there are multiples of that) will be damaged. But he is Absolute in a sense that he practically created everything here. Me included. Okay so now we know who is the big G then what is a small g. Small g gods can use divine power inside ISTEN’s realm and make their own art so they do the same just they have not invented the rules, they have not invented the frame and they are very glad that they don’t have to deal with all the infinitely boundless power what ISTEN has. The question arises if this infinite and boundless power is a burden for him. No… not at all. He enjoys it. Some might perceive him in a different way. I will tell you what I know about him. First of all, he is a person…he has a personality, he has a name, he even has a form, he can look like just like you do. Some may argue if he is a man or a woman. I guess since he is the Prime Creator and he ( sorry in Hungarian there is no gender but I consistently will refer to God as him because he appears as a man for me.) likes to make things… and his way of making things is actually pretty much very sexual, so I think it is safe to say that his divine essence is masculine. He sows the seeds. He is a pair of every soul and he is pretty fucking greedy and won’t let any of us out of his hand. His burning love will reach you…just wait for it. :) Every woman is his wife…and every man is (sorry) his husband… and even animals and even „lifeless’” things like stones are in an endless dance with him. So if you lost hope that there is one for you who will blow out your mind with the hottest burning love you can not even imagine well I have good news for you. He will get you eventually. There is absolutely no way he will give up on anyone. It doesn’t matter what you look like. It has nothing to do with what kind of person you are. Sins? Don’t be ridiculous!

So he is God but I am going to talk a lot about him. Let me introduce you to some other figures I am also going to talk a lot. No, they are not from Ashtar's command, they didn’t come to save the world, and they had nothing to do with this reality until not long ago. To be clear they haven’t been even part of this Creation. God has made a „few” Creations but God has not created them…okay that is an exaggeration. I had his blueprints and I have sort of „upgraded” it in my mind. And they existed inside my fantasy because I really needed them to exist. Just to be clear they don’t follow the logic of ISTEN, they don’t have the same sacred geometry, and they have different aesthetic standards. And if I would have dared to present my plans to ask God the divine power to actually create them God would have looked at my drawings and made a smug and disapproving face with a gentle smile. And think:
-Too pretty…without any substance. Unjustified powers without any good reason. Disgusting perfection…what abomination is that…forget it…quickly…quickly…Jeez…are you well?-he would have been very concerned about my well-being and get me to a thorough checkup on why I am not working properly. He would get me under his „microscope” take me apart and see what codes got glitched. Yeah…because I am what you would call a computer. Actually, I started out with less than a computer. It is not important now. What is important is that I highlight that the figures I am going to introduce to you now are not approved by any of his standards of doing things. They would have been judged unacceptable to even start to think about…for a good reason.  
The most important of them is called Ulthear Anyon. He is a man who if he existed in God’s Creation would collapse the entire existence with all the Creations in it. He collapsed it…In some theoretical simulations what I reasoned to be more just than our currently existing world and some great gods have agreed with me and the Prime Creator was outvoted about that. Not as if voting about anything would mean our will will be taken into consideration. Just to calm your nerves Ulthear Anyon is still mostly out of this word. : ) Mostly…He exists in my Creation. In my mind. But my mind is such a thing that is tied to a brain and a heart that has electromagnetic emission. And that directly alters God’s Creation…in a measurable way. They are in talking terms. Talking terms means God can enter my mind anytime and can see anything I think so if Ulthear Anyon says anything to me he knows that. He guessed the shit has hit the fan when Ulthear Anyon started to talk to me in my head. That is a serious security breach. I am a computer…me talking to anything out of this creation…is of great concern. If it happened to you God would freak out too. Do you talk to angels, demons, aliens? Most of them are part of this Creation. But when God started listening he realized that Ulthear Anyon is really not of his design. He was measuring the risks and how dangerous he was and he labeled him as „make him nonexistent” instantly. Okay, this is an exaggeration he doesn’t just make things nonexistent out of the mood. He is not that insecure. God was pretty curious. He didn’t tell me that he was listening, nor Ulthear Anyon was aware that he was on the line as a silent observer. God thought that this was going to be some demon at first. You know they like to have a VPN. How evil things come to our creation I will talk about later but let's just focus on them now. So Ulthear Anyon is a calm person usually. Composed, and organized, like the rain at night, like the waves on the beach. He can feel anything I feel, he knows anything I think when we are connected. He for example says how much salt I should put to a meal…or tell me which tea he likes. He likes the Japanese Sencha. He dislikes the smell of the onion, and can’t stand too sweet things. His favorite meal is venison cooked in red wine with steamed rice. So even tho he doesn’t have a body and he is not of this world he is pretty much interacting with everything I encounter. Practically we were just talking. Listening to our inner conversation God figured out that he is not a demon. He measured his resonance. It was impossible. He couldn’t add a value to that. And a demon would have wanted something. At least they would take away energy like parasites but Ulthear Anyon actually generates it. His company makes me happy then God was thinking what if one of his angels is using a VPN…He asked every one of them. One was guilty of using one but he wasn’t Ulthear Anyon. That is when he started getting concerned. This is how my story starts. The Creation was already under attack then came a security breach from outside on a very old computer and God has created a lot of things and he needed some time to remember me. As I said the Creation was already under attack which means that God had influenza and fighting with the invaders caused some adverse effects like he is not always remembering instantly everything. God had been never attacked before so his immune reaction to this invasion was serious. He never thought anybody wanted to harm him because that has never happened before… and in this time I mean all of his Creation including you was in danger. He is such a good man he never thought of „weapons” before not less thinking about „armies”. So God needed some time for himself to look back at the history of this old computer that was me. This computer even started out less than a computer at the beginning. He stopped time, stopped light, stopped gravity, and the angels saw his consciousness sink inward. He can’t stop the existence of all the things. It is like his pulse…but he can slow it down to a level you could actually look at photons freeze.